I feel like the only times I've been turning to God is when I am to the point of frustration and can't take bearing all the weight myself. I know that I don't have to do it all myself, but that is what I am accustomed to doing. It is hard to just let go and let God.
So....I know you all are wondering whats been going on with me. Well. I've just been trying to keep my sanity. I really want to get away from Wal-mart. Every 5 minutes I see some woman prenant or coming in with a new born and it kills me. I saw one little girl and I kid you not...that could have been Jasmine at 8 months. Part of me wanted to walk from behind the register and pick the little girl up and hold her, but I knew I would be out of line by doing that. And then there was this little boy. He was sooooo cute! He was talking about Diego and I was asking him if he knew any of the other characters and stuff. And his mom was like how do you know about Dora/Diego, you must have kids. I just told her that my goddaugher loves Dora and I occassionally watch it.
So yeah I've been struggling a lot emotionally these past couple of weeks. I talked a little to Wendy about it, but wasnt able to really talk because I was in class and texting from my phone. I think this is the worst I've been since the first few months. And I hate that I had to miss my support group last week. I am trying to be able to go this month, but Idk because its the end of the semester and things are hectic.
Well time for class....I hope everyone has a good day.
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